Bad dream.. forgive the rough explaination.

[Lex]

I was floating in the water, sleepy. The colours around me are grey and black the sky ways that misty white and the shore line trees are black like charcoal. Its all first personal for once, i lay floating knowing its cold/cool but not feeling it, i look up into the sky before closing my eyes to float, once i close my eyes, then i feel warmth around my throat, as I got pushed under the water, i feel the breath leave me, the bubbles and water blurring my vision of who has pushed me under my hands grab, touched the forearms of the person. i grip their hands at my throat holding me under but im not afraid im sad..so so sad. the hands at my throat pushing and holding me under feel warm but theres a cool spot on one of there hands i can see above me who is standing there im gasping my my lungs burning, it hurts not so bad... but im not fighting anymore, my hands are comforting the ones drowning me... i woke up crying, my lungs actually hurting coughing and struggling to breath even now they sting with a weird feeling. I wish I could explain this dream better ... i it reminds me of the ones i use to have when i was little the ones about dying in different ways or running from different monsters.

 

[whatsurusername]

very descriptive, sorry about ur dream.

 

[Lex]

very descriptive, sorry about ur dream.

Thanks.

 

[ShootingStar7123]

That sounds really difficult, like one of those dreams that sticks with you all day and affects your mood. If I was going to make an effort at interpretation, I'd say it sounds like this is a metaphor for loving and caring for someone who is actively harming you. I hope that isn't a dynamic happening in your real life! *hugs*

 

[PaulKH]

I've had a similar dream *at least* once, but vaguely remember more than one, where the gentleness and forgiveness of the violence seems the only course left, even as the adrenaline and fear of death rolls over me. I even had one dream that *felt* at first like a death-type struggle only to end up being something very different (the person had a wound needing to be cauterized, but I had "joined" the event right as they were struggling from the pain, shame, the fear of yet more pain, and still being in a battle/fight mode--talk about a perspective shift!).

If it helps you cope (feel less personally "destroyed" enough to name it a nightmare) in the future, I decided many years ago that I was going to embrace all experiences as learning opportunities, chances to grow my understanding/empathy in a useful way, and with that attitude shift, nightmares stopped. I mean, I've had some powerfully influential dreams that others would consider nightmares, of course, but they no longer felt like nightmares to me, and that must be the true metric: how they affect the dreamer. So, I know from experience that we have quite a bit of control over this via our acceptance level and openness to new experiences/willingness to use those for the benefit of understanding. If I might be cheeky for a moment, it's all in the mind. Hope that helps a bit.

 

[Polyethelene]

Interesting that you felt sad rather than afraid. That, plus the attempt to comfort them at the end seems to speak to not wanting to be in conflict with this force/character/person. And the generally somber tone seems like it bled into the visuals at the start of the dream. Perhaps they feel the same?

I used to de-rail any dream that presented a threat in the form of someone else, that could be fought. this, among other things lead the dangers in my dreams to take on a much more abstract form, never something that could be thought. These were honestly much more harrowing than the former.

Nowadays our dreams are more gentle. I have to echo PaulKH above- ideally you use dreams to empathize with what within yourself you fear, which makes how you reacted in this one perhaps the best it could have gone. If the dream wants you to feel something you feel it, and let it wash over you.

 

[Lex]

I've had a similar dream *at least* once, but vaguely remember more than one, where the gentleness and forgiveness of the violence seems the only course left, even as the adrenaline and fear of death rolls over me. I even had one dream that *felt* at first like a death-type struggle only to end up being something very different (the person had a wound needing to be cauterized, but I had "joined" the event right as they were struggling from the pain, shame, the fear of yet more pain, and still being in a battle/fight mode--talk about a perspective shift!).

If it helps you cope (feel less personally "destroyed" enough to name it a nightmare) in the future, I decided many years ago that I was going to embrace all experiences as learning opportunities, chances to grow my understanding/empathy in a useful way, and with that attitude shift, nightmares stopped. I mean, I've had some powerfully influential dreams that others would consider nightmares, of course, but they no longer felt like nightmares to me, and that must be the true metric: how they affect the dreamer. So, I know from experience that we have quite a bit of control over this via our acceptance level and openness to new experiences/willingness to use those for the benefit of understanding. If I might be cheeky for a moment, it's all in the mind. Hope that helps a bit.

Your cheek is always appreciated Paul ;P
Yeah, going through it just... reminded me of older dreams a lot of memories have started to come back... a lot of good onea...its.. strange. But its also made my dreams come back more vividly kinda like im relieving the past... and i do believe I know whos causing it. But much like life... it has to run its course whatever that means.

 

[Lex]

Interesting that you felt sad rather than afraid. That, plus the attempt to comfort them at the end seems to speak to not wanting to be in conflict with this force/character/person. And the generally somber tone seems like it bled into the visuals at the start of the dream. Perhaps they feel the same?

I used to de-rail any dream that presented a threat in the form of someone else, that could be fought. this, among other things lead the dangers in my dreams to take on a much more abstract form, never something that could be thought. These were honestly much more harrowing than the former.

Nowadays our dreams are more gentle. I have to echo PaulKH above- ideally you use dreams to empathize with what within yourself you fear, which makes how you reacted in this one perhaps the best it could have gone. If the dream wants you to feel something you feel it, and let it wash over you.

I like the perceptive you put into this, yeah. I think it feels that way.