Imposters ? (Reoccurring)

[pearlgurl]

Hi yall

First post here , long time interest in dream analysis.

The past two weeks or so I have had unusually vivid nightmares and ensuing bouts of insomnia. The last time I remember sleep issues of this caliber was when I was a child. A persistent theme when I was younger was that of "imposters" ie person posing as my dad, but who I knew was not my dad, etc. These imposters would almost always pose direct threat to me.

The past few weeks I have had increasingly poor sleep, and some bad dreams, but last night was the first time I can remember since childhood I had an imposter type nightmare. I woke myself crying and shaking. It's been a few years since I have had the conscious thought "Thank goodness it was just a dream." I could not fall back asleep...

In the dream it was this mother figure, looking and speaking like my mother, but she was not just disowning me, she was punishing me. I'm not clear on why, but she had taken to heart the opinion I wasn't actually deserving of her affection and begun turning all my friends against me, to the point of even taking my cat away and telling me I was so reprehensible I didn't deserve having any love. It was pretty brutal. A lot of begging and trying to prove myself to deaf ears. When I woke up I was crying, and I had the clear thought that it was like the dreams I used to have as a kid...

Any ideas why this is showing back up again/what it means ? The insomnia and then short (2hr) spans of sleep I do get a night are starting to wear on me.

Thanks in advance

 

[unclesirbobbyrobson]

Try to make associations with the dream. Try asking questions like these
1. Have you got a mother figure in real life. Someone who you wish was supportive, and sympathetic? Think of someone who especially wants to be a mother figure.
2. You use the word "deserving" twice at least. What does this word make you think of? Does someone treat you as undeserving? Do you feel more deserving? Dreams often feature a key emotion which does not seem relevant in real life but simply picks on a theme which is prominent in your mind

One idea is that this dream simply captures a key emotion welling up inside you right now. You woke up crying so maybe the dream captures your thoughts and emotions building up inside you. That maybe seems like an easy answer but dreams are like little stories which capture your thoughts in the here and now. How id you feel a little lost and emotional?

 

[MistressLex]

Stop using your emotions to punish yourself. There is nothing wrong with you, no matter the cause. The dreams use the persona aspect to show you the masculine or feminine side to the conceptual emotions. You deserve Life.... once you accept that these feelings are a projection of worry and deep seated fears. And write through them, you'll find you might be able to process the direction your sleeping mind is trying to force you to look at.

 

[Al1ce]

It is difficult not knowing you, I myself had past trauma, I’m not sure if you maybe have trauma you have buried deep in your subconscious, and may not want to face, but by bringing these shadow into the light begins an alchemical process within you, I only say this with you mentioning the dreams as a child also, it is a very sensitive topic, but the truth is that we can’t run from them, as they are negative energies we hold even against another, this resentment builds up, the only way I found to deal with these is to forgive and let them go, I found writing a letter to the person, accepting the soul lesson, who it has made you today, how wiser and stronger it has made you, dnt focus on the past feelings, focus on the acceptance, but you are not actually giving it to them, you read it out as if to them and you release the emotions it brings, through tears the water inside your body is conscious and this is released, you then burn the paper over a sink and wash the ashes away, this is the letter go, I accept the lesson, I have applied this to my being, I forgive you and now I let you go, this is the power of forgiveness and you don’t even have to tell them, you only need to mean it, and these troubles will be no more, I hope this helps.

 

[Lyn Holley]

It is my belief that when the time is right, the psyche raises old wounds to be healed. The traumatic dreams in your childhood could be related to this thought: if these are my real parents, why are they acting toward me in this way? Therapy would be great, but if not possible, working with a self-help book that attracts you, working with art and meditation, or sharing with a very trusted friend who will not lecture or give advice. Journaling is a healing modality.