Hi all,
I am new to this site, this was the first forum I found about dream translation so I believe it must be the correct one. I had a weird 4-part dream at night, then another dream, and later today I had meeting with crows at day time (not in dream). I believe those must be some signs... just how to interpret them?
I am male, soon will celebrate my 37th birthday. I am married, two daughters (one of them born 7 weeks ago, another will turn 6 years old soon). My marriage is having difficult times, I have had an affairs, my wife knows about them, and we are still not really sure if we can or if we must stay together. We try to work on our marriage, but so far not very successfully. Professionally I work as a manager, more than 16 years for the same company. Overall I feel good in work, but I want to achieve more. I have thought about starting a business, but I have not found that kind of idea that would captivate (not sure if correct word, English is not my native language) me very much to start a journey as an entrepreneur. 3 months ago I saw an opportunity that in addition of my direct duties, I can earn company extra money, so I pitched this idea to company's owner. He was interested and actually offered that we could split earnings 50/50. So last months I have worked on weekends, on later hours, generating extra profit for company (in 3 months more than 2 years of my salary in net profit). However, I am not sure I will get what owner promised I would. He is not my direct manager, so I am afraid, that if Top Management finds out about this, they would fight to avoid giving any extra money for me. I am a bit afraid to re-ask company owner, when and how he would transfer earned money. Some part of me says, if owner will not pay, I will leave this job. It is well paid, but I have some savings, I must be fine for some time... but from other side I sometimes doubt my skills, I have low self-esteem which I have tried to improve (and actually have improved in past years with help of psychotherapy sessions), but, yes, still there are some doubts. Also affairs happened mostly because of trying to find another ways to prove my worth as my sexual desires are much higher than my wife's, and I felt not appreciated.
So that's where I am - in a middle of some very important decisions in life, to divorce or not to divorce (and I am much more worried about my daughters, not me and wife), and also professionally, keep working or try to find a new path in life.
About a week ago I had a dream from which I remembered only this part.
" I was in a beach together with a Spanish girl with black hair (I don't remember if I met her there or we went together. I am from North Europe, so I don't know how I knew she was Spanish). She had red sore eyes! Then we went "hand in hand" somewhere and we found ourselves in some sandy field between three highways with heavy traffic. Highways were from all sides (but different height), like creating triangle square in the middle were we were located. We started to make love right in that place."
And that's all I remembered from that dream. Few days ago my older daughter brought home from kinder garden conjunctivitis, so last couple if days I also have red, sore eyes myself (and my wife as well). One of these last days there was crow flying close to me and crowing, I didn't count how many times, but that seemed weird.
Last night I had this dream...
Part 1: I was in a meeting with my colleagues. It had to be small meeting with only few colleagues, but then there joined more and more colleagues. I was leading this meeting, so everyone waited on me, when I will open report and tell them news from graphs. I felt in control. I shared my screen and I tried to type in a browser "power bi", but I couldn't do that. Instead of that I started to type some porn site or dating site addresses in front of all my colleagues. But I never typed more than 2-3 letters on that address, I saw that I have typed wrong, and quickly deleted and tried again. I was afraid that I have had some browsing history left and someone could see that I type porn site or adult dating site address. So I felt some shame inside me, but I was the only one who understood what I am typing. Then I understood, that I cannot type this, and then everyone just left, as meeting was over. When I looked around, I was located in my grandparent's house. So that meeting took part there (at least in the end...). But just rooms were like expanded, but I knew I am there.
Part 2: Then on the same location, my grandparent's house, many relatives showed up. It was some kind of family gathering. I remember my godfather sitting next to me, he gave me a hand (in real life we have become alienated in last years). There were also other relatives. And then something strange started to happen, people seemed worried about my father. He was sitting in corner and his face was turning into blue color. As I understood he had a stroke. He was still like sitting, trying to smile, but completely out of this world. I started to scream if anyone has called ambulance. At first nobody answered. Then I gave more direct question: "who exactly have called an Ambulance?" Then finally one of my relatives told that she had called ambulance and I calmed down.
I am new to this site, this was the first forum I found about dream translation so I believe it must be the correct one. I had a weird 4-part dream at night, then another dream, and later today I had meeting with crows at day time (not in dream). I believe those must be some signs... just how to interpret them?
I am male, soon will celebrate my 37th birthday. I am married, two daughters (one of them born 7 weeks ago, another will turn 6 years old soon). My marriage is having difficult times, I have had an affairs, my wife knows about them, and we are still not really sure if we can or if we must stay together. We try to work on our marriage, but so far not very successfully. Professionally I work as a manager, more than 16 years for the same company. Overall I feel good in work, but I want to achieve more. I have thought about starting a business, but I have not found that kind of idea that would captivate (not sure if correct word, English is not my native language) me very much to start a journey as an entrepreneur. 3 months ago I saw an opportunity that in addition of my direct duties, I can earn company extra money, so I pitched this idea to company's owner. He was interested and actually offered that we could split earnings 50/50. So last months I have worked on weekends, on later hours, generating extra profit for company (in 3 months more than 2 years of my salary in net profit). However, I am not sure I will get what owner promised I would. He is not my direct manager, so I am afraid, that if Top Management finds out about this, they would fight to avoid giving any extra money for me. I am a bit afraid to re-ask company owner, when and how he would transfer earned money. Some part of me says, if owner will not pay, I will leave this job. It is well paid, but I have some savings, I must be fine for some time... but from other side I sometimes doubt my skills, I have low self-esteem which I have tried to improve (and actually have improved in past years with help of psychotherapy sessions), but, yes, still there are some doubts. Also affairs happened mostly because of trying to find another ways to prove my worth as my sexual desires are much higher than my wife's, and I felt not appreciated.
So that's where I am - in a middle of some very important decisions in life, to divorce or not to divorce (and I am much more worried about my daughters, not me and wife), and also professionally, keep working or try to find a new path in life.
About a week ago I had a dream from which I remembered only this part.
" I was in a beach together with a Spanish girl with black hair (I don't remember if I met her there or we went together. I am from North Europe, so I don't know how I knew she was Spanish). She had red sore eyes! Then we went "hand in hand" somewhere and we found ourselves in some sandy field between three highways with heavy traffic. Highways were from all sides (but different height), like creating triangle square in the middle were we were located. We started to make love right in that place."
And that's all I remembered from that dream. Few days ago my older daughter brought home from kinder garden conjunctivitis, so last couple if days I also have red, sore eyes myself (and my wife as well). One of these last days there was crow flying close to me and crowing, I didn't count how many times, but that seemed weird.
Last night I had this dream...
Part 1: I was in a meeting with my colleagues. It had to be small meeting with only few colleagues, but then there joined more and more colleagues. I was leading this meeting, so everyone waited on me, when I will open report and tell them news from graphs. I felt in control. I shared my screen and I tried to type in a browser "power bi", but I couldn't do that. Instead of that I started to type some porn site or dating site addresses in front of all my colleagues. But I never typed more than 2-3 letters on that address, I saw that I have typed wrong, and quickly deleted and tried again. I was afraid that I have had some browsing history left and someone could see that I type porn site or adult dating site address. So I felt some shame inside me, but I was the only one who understood what I am typing. Then I understood, that I cannot type this, and then everyone just left, as meeting was over. When I looked around, I was located in my grandparent's house. So that meeting took part there (at least in the end...). But just rooms were like expanded, but I knew I am there.
Part 2: Then on the same location, my grandparent's house, many relatives showed up. It was some kind of family gathering. I remember my godfather sitting next to me, he gave me a hand (in real life we have become alienated in last years). There were also other relatives. And then something strange started to happen, people seemed worried about my father. He was sitting in corner and his face was turning into blue color. As I understood he had a stroke. He was still like sitting, trying to smile, but completely out of this world. I started to scream if anyone has called ambulance. At first nobody answered. Then I gave more direct question: "who exactly have called an Ambulance?" Then finally one of my relatives told that she had called ambulance and I calmed down.