tommedina79
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I believe I have met the owner of those bluish green eyes. We met on a dating app six months ago, the dream I had was all but forgotten til I saw her picture. I sent her a message "killer eyes". she responded back "These eyes have been on the run for a long time". "Just a long time?" I remarked " I would chase those eyes forever." She replied some time later that day with " Maybe you already have"
We exchanged information and began texting at first, then phone calls. It was when we did our only video chat when everything changed. During the chat she averted her gaze, looked side to side. Then finally she looked at me with those eyes and I felt a rush of emotions. Fear, anger, love, longing, a familiarity I have never experienced before. We locked eyes in silence for a couple seconds, I felt myself starting to become emotional and shut off the camera, I then began to cry softly.
After that meeting I began to change. I would pick fights over petty things. Things that usually didn't bother me hit me in my core. I feel because of that, it's why we never met in person. We continued talking for about 6-7 months in total til she hit me with something so horrible... So damaging, I feel it is going to take a long time to recover from that. She had those same eyes. I wasn't looking for this and a part of me wishes it never happened. I feel lost, empty and responsible for it going bad.
I have no idea why I acted the way I did. I felt like another person, not myself. I am vexed...
We exchanged information and began texting at first, then phone calls. It was when we did our only video chat when everything changed. During the chat she averted her gaze, looked side to side. Then finally she looked at me with those eyes and I felt a rush of emotions. Fear, anger, love, longing, a familiarity I have never experienced before. We locked eyes in silence for a couple seconds, I felt myself starting to become emotional and shut off the camera, I then began to cry softly.
After that meeting I began to change. I would pick fights over petty things. Things that usually didn't bother me hit me in my core. I feel because of that, it's why we never met in person. We continued talking for about 6-7 months in total til she hit me with something so horrible... So damaging, I feel it is going to take a long time to recover from that. She had those same eyes. I wasn't looking for this and a part of me wishes it never happened. I feel lost, empty and responsible for it going bad.
I have no idea why I acted the way I did. I felt like another person, not myself. I am vexed...
